Gurupoonima

Day 16- again- I think-

There are several differences I have come across in India. The mesquitoes are silent which is bitter, and Emma and Jessyca told me of a woman they met in GOA who was either 24 or 26, she did not know neither did her parents. Imagine coming from a place that you are to busy to remember the day your child was born, but then again perhaps you are trying to forget.

I spoke to Bhatesh this morning to check in and he told me of a case that came into the hospital last night. It was a young woman who married a year ago, it was a suicide. He spent from 10 pm until 6:30 am in the police station filling out paper work for this case. Alone and with dark thoughts roaming in his head. He said she was very young and in this year that has passed pending her marriage  ``God only knows what happened``. I wonder if she knew her age, if she left children, family who cared or if she was so alone this was her only out. I imagine that she did not have children. I know when I had such thoughts my actions were stilled by the fact that Omaha would have to live with this for her whole life and perhaps she would understand when she was older but since I have recovered I would say that no there would not have been any justification in this course. But I had people around me, I had reason to come back, I have Yoga that kept me still where she may have had no other option and clearly this was where her pain lead her.

She hung herself so I imagine she was pretty firm in the final moments as this does take some preperation and can be decided against if she waivers. But she did not, she hung herself and who knows for how long before she was found, perhaps she was found still alive, I don`t know, probably never will and I imagine this story is not so different from others around the world. When such a drastic action is taken I have to believe this was the better option and her pain though temporary has found it`s end, and now meets it`s tormenter for another round in another place and another time.

Who can say who lost or won in a situation such as this, I would venture that everyone both lost and won.

Today is a holiday where we give respect and praise for our teachers I know she will be in my respects today as I have learned much from her loss.